Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Zacchaeus and C

Entering Jericho, Jesus passed through the city.  Jesus was just passing through.  What were his plans?  The crowds were building, following him.  Zacchaeus was trying to see what Jesus was like but being small of stature, was unable to do so because of the crowd.  He risked Jesus staying his course and coming his way.  He ran some distance ahead in Jesus’ projected direction and climbed a tall tree.  When Jesus came to the spot, he looked up and said, “Zacchaeus, hurry down, I mean to stay at your house today.”  He quickly descended and welcomed him with delight.  When this was observed, everyone began to murmur.  Jesus stopped intentionally to be seen and heard not only for Zacchaeus, but for everyone who might indict, who might desire to know healing, who might be lost, who might not know demons and for those who did.  Zacchaeus stood his ground ….  The Son of Man has come to search out and save what was lost.

Luke 19:1,3,5-7,8,10

We all have our demons.  They bring intense pain, loss.  They attempt to smother who we are.  Many can bring a lifetime of struggle and challenge, appearing monumental to overcome.  To us, personally, most are masked addictions; drugs, alcohol, gaming, guns, pornography, envy, rage, idolatry, egocentrism, resentment, deceit, greed, power.  However, to those who know us, our friends, spouses, children, they can recognize, unveil our demons.  The demons recognize them and fear them as they did/do Jesus.  The demons retreat, surrender. 
            Jesus does not say much about demons.  They remain vague.  He drives them out.  Jesus is all about restoration, peace, love and dignity.  He generously demonstrates and gives healing, light, mercy, joy.  He identifies.  He models for us.  He invites, expects us to follow him and do the same in his name. 

C

we sit in a booth.  pizza lies like shattered glass on the table between us
i remember …
            8 years ago ms. C told me “f’n science is stupid”
today she tells me …
“my demons are hiding, waiting to come out”
obsession, paranoia, blindness emerge
scars like cryptic dominoes pock her palms and wrists
            tiny pools of water collect in the dimples failing to wash away the pain
pain?
            i was 10.  what’s love look like?
            father … angry his daughter takes a cigarette from countertop
                        mother … watches while smoking, father brands his anger
            do other kids get lovin’ this way?
ms. C’s given birth to 2 babies with 1 man in 5 years
the 2nd child died days after she was born
            she thought he loved her; he thought she loved him 
at the fork, each wandered along different paths
depression, a parasite on loss, bore deeply into C’s soul
            she drank bourbon. shot heroin. drank more bourbon. shot more heroin
more demons came. she did not recognize them. they entered
            a friend she barely knew by name o.d.’d and wrapped herself from life
aliens in uniform stole her precious child
where is her daughter and do her guardians smoke?
friends lie, turn on her
big man behind high bench sends her to a cage for 2 years
gates open, C’s free to go.  she fears demons hidden within
auto license revoked for 11 months
attempt to deceive failed. drug test failed
metrolink pass takes her everywhere & nowhere
            the closest bus drops her off 1.5 hours before her work begins at 3 pm
            it does not run at 11 pm.  3 connections later bring her home at 1:30 am
everyone knows her as bad; addictions, depression define her,
but that “is not who I am”    
C speaks truth
            upon her words i focus
they’re whispers of the Holy Spirit … HOPE
            HOPE
the demons are coming out
            they have been seen
            they know
ms. C has joined Zacchaeus in standing her ground.
                                                            *C’s initial has been changed to protect her privacy

Help others who battle constantly.
Take a supper date with your daughter or son.
Have a beer with a friend, break bread together and talk.
Run or walk a 5k.
Join a discussion at PX-90.
Pray, listen, read in our adoration chapel.
Family, friend time on the deck, in the park, in the neighborhood.
Immerse in a CRHP weekend.
Take a walk in the woods with your spouse.
Put yourself in the Mass.
Join a service organization.
Take your family on an outing where connecting with one another is of greater value than the venue.
Live the sacraments grand and small.

What demon-breakers come to your mind? 
How might God be calling you to act?

These are mere samples of God’s fruits, the gifts Jesus came to give, the gifts we are asked to give freely.
Demons hate these.  They become exposed.  They tremble.

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